STUDIO LIFE

Length: Around 5 months.

Time : Monday to Friday, 08.00 to 16.00 (8hours/day, 5days/week)

Activities: Drawing, drawing, and drawing.

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LOL, NO. I’M KIDDING.

8 hours/day, 5 days/week, only drawing?

NO ONE DID THAT, BRO.

I’ll show you the reality of ‘Architecture Student Life’ and “Studio Life’

First day of studio, no one absent that day. We were excited attending our first day of studio, somehow.

Personally, I do love my spot here:

(my seat on studio, right in the middle. Me and my cousins as laptop background)

Doesn’t everyone looks pretty serious?

Don’t be too surprised. NO ONE doing their final project. They’re on internet or watching movies.

(some were watching movies, some were on facebook)

And still goes until few weeks. Maybe around 2/3 weeks.

We spent most of our time in studio with any kind of useless thing, hahahaha.

Until finally we smelled danger.

Until we realized, DEADLINE WAS GETTING CLOSER.

We’re finally getting in the right track, finally started to draw.

draw,

draw.. 

and draw again..

But it doesn’t mean we didn’t have fun.

Architecture student is human too.

(yes, the black tshirt guy behind my back is human too)

When no idea came up, we (or is it just me?) started draw something useless.

Panda, anyone? 

(well, obviously it’s my drawings)

When we’re tired and fed up with drawings, we’re out for a while, sit on the bench in front of studio, drank some coffee, and talked about some funny stuffs.

(bunch of tired kids)

Or lied down for a second, because we didn’t get sleep the night before.

(we can sleep anywhere anytime)

Or disturb others..

Ok, fine. Let’s take a picture.

Or give massage when one of us had headache ..

Or braid other’s hair..

OK it’s getting ridiculous.

Well,

Even short chit-chat in studio is enough to refresh our brain.

And don’t forget this one.

SELFIE.

(beloved studio friends)

(Title: Night at The Studio)

And the craziest of all.

(ok, let's stop here)

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Clock keep ticking, day by day passed, the critique was ahead, and we still had a lot of things to do.

(total messed up)

Yes, we never have enough time.

Never.

Our ‘studio luggage’ was getting heavier.

(everyday sight on my car's back seat)

Our studio table was super messy.

(no, not mineee)

Choose a quick meal like bread + milk for lunch to save time.

Would you like some bread with Nutella?

(secretly became bread seller)

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Final weeks,

pressure was on the air.

Everyone was very serious, everyone tried their best and gave their all.

Sweat and tears.

Frustrated.

Because no matter how hard you try, you never feel good enough.

That was tough.

And finally the crit!

(2nd crit)

(final crit)

Well, we’re not really smiling.

We all were very nervous, sick, nauseous.  (and of course, sleepless)

Only one thoughts in mind, 

“Well, what will be will be.“ 

*surrender mode: on*

(how I released some pressure, made fun others)

Helping each other attach drawings on the wall. 

(busy, busy)

Cheering each other.

(total mess before crit)

Taken from my spot, watching other’s presentation (read: execution), and waiting for my turn.

(this friend got A for her final, my turn was right after her, I was done for)

Hands trembling.

Heart beating.

Brain exploding.

When it came to your turn,

you won’t realize how time passed..

1 hour ..

2 hours ..

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Jut when it’s over, finally you realized the sun already gone down.

Studio friends welcomed you back with smile.

You smiled at them back, felt thankful.

For them, for everything.

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Energy suddenly depleted.

10^th level of hunger suddenly attacked.

And I can’t forget the relieved feeling I get right after,

WOAH!

It’s like something heavy that been attached to me for months suddenly disappear.

There’re still a lot of mistakes, of course.

But all I knew was,

IT’S OVVVEERRR! YAY!

I arrived home, went straight to my beloved bed I’ve barely met for the past few months.

Sleep with no worries.

No anxiety.

No nightmare.

Oh how I miss sleep comfortably like this!

Before sleep I slowly whispered my pray to God, praised and thanked Him, for all He has done to me, for all I’ve been going through. Thanked Him for everyone who’ve always been there, supported me, cheered for me, prayed for me. Parents, siblings, and friends. Thanked Him for the countless blessing I received.

From now on, there are only good days and great days left, rite?

I smiled and fell asleep in no time.

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I sincerely thank you for this kind of experience and memories, dear Studio.

That was superb. *thankful* *tear up*

(my instagram post)
(quote credit to Haruki Murakami-Kafka on the Shore)

(Yudisium: a ceremony before graduation)

(with the late Mr. Yuni, our best and our favorite lecturer of all the time, passed away on 2016 T^T)

NB: This post supposed to be posted months ago, right after my graduation on 2015, but I was too lazy heheh ;)

Beberapa hari yang lalu saya iseng iseng buka blog yang sudah penuh debu dan usang ini kembali, saking ga ada kerjaannya di tempat kerja. Kemudian saya menemukan post pendek yang berjudul “Humility” yang saya tulis beberapa tahun silam. Bukan tulisan saya, tapi dari buku renungan harian yang saya baca. Setelah membaca-baca, saya kok jadi pengen berbagi hal lain tentang ‘kerendahan hati’ lewat blog ini. Bukan pengalaman istimewa yang menyentuh hati, tapi memberkati dan menyadarkan sekali. At least buat saya.

Waktu saya kuliah Arsitektur dulu, saya punya teman, biar sopan sebut saja namanya Sisi, bukan nama sebenarnya ^^. Dari Semester 1 sampai Semester 7 sih cuman sekedar kenal aja, tapi di waktu skripsi, kami satu studio. Namanya studio skripsi, ketemu 5 hari seminggu, ketemu bertatap muka 8 jam sehari (belum termasuk kalau lembur sampai malam -_-), mau nggak mau satu studio jadi deket semua seperti keluarga. Apalagi mahasiswa teknik ceweknya cuman 20%, dan di studio saya ceweknya cuma ada 5 dari 20an penghuni studio. Jadilah kami, segelintir ciwi ciwi studio skripsi, sering ngobrol, berbagi, cari makan siang bareng, sampai akhirnya kemana mana bareng.

Singkat cerita kami jadi cukup dekat, mulai buka rahasia dikit dikit. Nah, si Sisi ini anaknya pendiam, nggak banyak bicara, sederhanaaaaaa sekali, pokoknya nggak macem-macem. Sungguh tanpa ada maksud menghina ya teman temiin, tapi baju yang dia pakai ke kampus juga nggak beragam sekali, nggak kayak saya yang punya prinsip dalam sebulan kuliah nggak boleh ada baju yang dipakai 2 kali. Jadi dalam sebulan baju yang dipakai tiap hari harus ganti, gitu. Itulah saya. Tapi si Sisi ini sama sekali berbeda. Tas yang dia pakai pun mungkin hanya gantai sekali atau dua kali selama 4 tahun kuliah.

Dan disinilah rahasianya, teman teman.

Waktu itu namanya mahasiswa ya, belum ada penghasilan tetap. Saya sih ada dari kerja part time dari Semester 2, tapi gajinya nggak seberapa dan tiap bulan pasti ludes nggak bersisa gara gara kebanyakan online shopping *jadi curhat* Intinya, seorang mahasiswa, apalagi yang perantauan, berapa sih saldo tabungan yang di punya? Mostly, setahu saya, kecuali teman-teman yang bener-bener dari keluarga berada ya, saldo di tabungan pasti sekitar 6-7 digit aja ya kan? Saya pun sama, liat saldo ada 7 dikit dan diawali 2 koma aja udah untungggg. Lah si Sisi ini cerita kalo saldo di ATM nya 8 digit. Belasan koma begitu lah pokoknya *jengjeng*

Uang darimana?

Bukan dari upah bekerja (Sisi nggak kerja apa-apa kok) atau diberi cuma cuma dari keluarga, tapi ternyata eh ternyata si Sisi ini ngumpulin uang jajan yang didapat dari keluarganya setiap 6 bulan sekali/ per semester. Dikumpul kumpulin jadi banyak.

Astaga, saya cuma melongo dengernya.

Saya dan teman teman ciwi ciwi yang lain cuma bisa terheran heran sambil bilang “Astaga, Si. Kalo aku jadi kamu pasti gaya hidupku gak kayak begini, pasti nggak makan hemat begini, pasti belanja kemana mana, pasti blab la bla..”

Dengar ceritanya Sisi, saya jadi introspeksi diri. Saya seperti barusan ditampar keras dengan kerendahan hati yang Sisi punya. Disaat yang lain berusaha terlihat kaya diluar tapi ternyata nggak punya apa apa, Sisi justru sebaliknya.

Ah, kamu humble sekali, Sisi.
Saya sungguh belajar banyak dari kamu.
Selain cerita dari si Sisi, ada lagi hal yang menampar saya lumayan keras. Gambar ini.

Familiar sama gambarnya Benny Mice kan? Kartunis ini memang doyan bikin gambar yang lucu, berdasar pada kenyataan sehari-hari, dan mostly nyindirnya cukup ngena. Contohnya ya ini nih.

Saya nggak sampai segitunya sih, tapi saya cukup disadarkan juga. Terlihat kaya hanya di luar, apa untungnya? Apa agar tidak dipandang rendah orang lain? Hari gini kok masih mikirin opini orang lain.Banyak lho kasusnya, orang nurutin pergaulan, nurutin pendapat dan pandangan orang, jadinya babak belur sendiri.

Teman kerja saya pernah cerita soal tetangganya, rumahnya biasa, ibunya juga cuma orang sederhana yang tinggal di desa, tapi anaknyaaaaa ya ampun, mungkin karena lingkungan kerjanya sebagai SPG juga, gaya hidupnya jadi ikut-ikutan (sok) jet set. Tiap hari, kalau berdasarkan timeline Path nya ya, kerjaannya belanja kemana, nginep di hotel mana, party di villa mana, dan sebagainya.

Ada yang pengen dipandang sebagai orang berada, akhirnya beli rumah gede, beli mobil, dsb dsb. Tapi kredit semua. Akhirnya gaji tiap bulan langsung bless hilang kesana kesini buat nyicil ini itu. Sisanya gak seberapa. Rumah mewah, mobil mewah, hidup merana. Mau punya hidup seperti itu? Hanya untuk dipandang orang lain?

Kurang lebih begini nih, hahaha (gambar dari Benny-Mice lagi)

Mama juga pernah cerita ada temennya di sekolah yang tiap bulan kerjaannya beli Tup****are (toples warna warni yang gak murah itu lho). Jadi tiap keluar yang baru, beli. Ada model baru dan dia belum punya, beli. Lha gini ini ngapain? Buat apa? Mau dibuat koleksi apa gimana? Kalau memang butuh sih gak apa-apa, lha tapi kalo semua produk satu katalog harus dipunya semua ngapain? Mama sih gak pernah tergoda, karena di rumah toples juga sudah banyak, dan itupun sebagian besar nggak terpakai.

Terus tetangga saya juga ada, pernah sakit hati karena dipandang rendah sama tetangga saya yang lain. Kalau gak salah denger dia mau pinjam uang tapi gak dikasih karena yang mau mijemin ini takut uangnya gak balik atau gimana gitu *urusan ibu-ibu pkk, gak pengen ikutan* Kemudian sakit hatilah dia. Akhirnya dia pengen buktikan ke tetangganya itu kalau dia juga punya uang, kalau hutang pasti mampu membayar, gitu. Nggak lama belilah dia motor. Nggak tanggung-tanggung, langsung 4 bok! Dan semuanya diparkir di depan rumah udah kayak pameran motor *melongo* Nah ini nih, babak belur demi harga diri. Oalah dunia sekarang ..

(Btw, ini kok ceritanya jadi panjang kemana mana -_-)

Saya sendiri sekarang sudah berubah banyak sih. Dulu waktu SMP, belum boleh bawa motor, saya sama kakak dijemputnya barengan sama papa. Kami nggak punya mobil, jadilah digonceng nya bertiga, cenglu istilahnya kalau di Malang, gonceng telu. Sekolah di sekolah elit, hampir semua dijemput pakai mobil, saya harus cenglu malu juga. Dalam hati pengen bisa seperti teman yang lain, punya mobil. Saya sering bilang mama, pengen punya mobil. Mama sih jawabnya santai aja, memang uang darimana, rumah juga seupil mobil mau taruh mana, punyapun satu keluarga ga ada yang bisa bawa mobil, hahaha. Dipikir-pikir betul juga, wong gak mampu kok, ngapain maksa punya, hanya demi nutupin malu.

Seringkali saya meminta, tanpa peduli kondisi keuangan keluarga. Seperi lupa kalau saya bukan orang kaya. Kalau diingat-ingat malu sendiri, kok ya childish sekali saya ini 

Tapi sekarang saya sudah tidak peduli lagi dengan pandangan orang. Biarin punya hape murah, yang penting bisa dipakai. Biarin rumah kecil di pucuk gunung, yang penting bayarnya gak pake utang sana sini.Biarin instagram isinya monoton selfie , gak kayak anak-anak hits yang suka hang out kemana mana, isinya foto makanan ini, foto di tempat kece itu, dsb, yang penting saya tiap bulan komitmen nabung buat masa depan.

Coba lihat lagi gambar kartun Benny Mice yang tadi sudah saya posting, kira-kira kamu mau hidup dengan cara yang mana? Kanan atau kiri?

(gambar screenshot timeline twitter, sudah sering saya posting dimana mana ^^)

Dan ini saya dan ciwi ciwi di studio skripsi waktu Yudisium. Saya yang ujung kiri, kalau Sisi .. tebak sendiri ah! ;)

Pagi hari.
Bangun tidur.
Turun ke bawah ke kamar keluarga.
Mama papa lagi ngumpul dan mengobrol seperti biasa.
Sesekali bercanda dan tertawa bersama.

Terlihat biasa memang.
Tapi buat saya mereka lovey dovey sekali.

Dan pada detik itu ..

saya merasa jadi orang yang paling kaya di dunia :)

Punya kedua orang tua yang masih lengkap dan sehat, apakah ada kekayaan yang lebih baik dari ini?

Kalau kamu, kapan kamu merasa jadi orang paling kaya di dunia?

It’s Baek Ah Yeon, Korean singer, recent song titled “You Shouldn’t”

(Korea agaiinn? oh gezzzz..)

I'm sorry hahahhaha.

If you’re not Kpop listener, try to listen to this song at least once! 

I personally think this song is so catchy, heartwarming, and the lyric is so deep as well.

First, I’m Baek Ah Yeon’s fan since her 2nd mini album in 2013, with song “Good Boy” (catchy song, cute concept, and the outfit suit my taste very well :P). That’s why I’m so excited when I heard Ah Yeon appear with new song.

Most people disappointed because Baek Ah Yeon didn’t comeback for real, no promotion, just with a Music Video, after 2 years.

And it’s just a Lyrical Video.

I’m kinda disappointed too, because a girl with good voice like Ah Yeon should be known more, appear on screen more, not only the voice.

But for me the song is so great!! Try to play this video below, turn on the subtitle, listen the song, watch the amazing art.


(Btw, you can read/copy the english translation of this MV in the end part of this post)

(I tweeted about it as well)

Yesss, I think every girl have been through this kind of heartbreaking moment in life at least once, right? I think that’s why many people says this song is so touching.

Especially girls.

You can see he’s in love with you but suddenly he disappear like wind, with no reason.
You already soooo close with him, but after one-day-hang-out he never contact you again.
It’s like only one step away before you start the relationship with him, but after he sent you home in one night, he act like nothing happened between you two before.

Admit it, girls. You have been through this kind of irritating moment at least once.

RITTTTEEEEE? RAISE YOUR HAND YOU AGREE!

For me, I’ve been through this 4 or 5 times, I think. In some cases, I was in love with the boy like (I thought) he do. So I gave him green light and waited happily. In other case, I didn’t give him green light because I think it won’t work for us, but he keep appearing like habit, for quite some time.

And what happened when they suddenly disappear like wind for no reason? And even (some of them) appear with someone else soon after?

We didn’t make it, I know. It’s a failure, I know. It’s not even my boyfriend, I know.
But HOWEVER, all of them breaks my heart, don’t know why. Maybe it’s because I already expected too high, or for the ones who keep appearing for a long time, suddenly there’s no more frequent text and calls, it feels so empty inside.

For some reason, I feel dumped and stupid.
And again, afraid to start new relationship.
And again, afraid to give trust to others.
Afraid to be hurt.

I’m sure every girl feels so.

But I realize we can’t just blame it all to the boys.

When you listen to the song, there’s a rap part by a boy. It’s like the answer from the boy why he did that. And I think it's the best answer for girls who keep asking "why did you do that?" just like the first phrase of the song.

And I think it’s normal for the boy to feel that way.

Like..

“Ah, I think we’re not going to work..”
“It’s strange, but I lost my interest on her..”
“I saw a new side of her today, I think I can’t stand it..”
“Don’t know why but it’s getting boring already?”

And something similar.

I’m not too sure, because I’m not a boy heheh. But I guess it’s something like that.
And I realize it’s normal too think that way.
What can you do if you suddenly lost interest?
It’s better to run away before you officially become her man. It will hurt her 100 times more.

But I still hate the part “how you make us feel so stupid”.
It’s like “What’s the point of my green light then? I smiled innocently like stupid.” I don't write how much it hurts, the lyric of the song has explained EVERYTHING.

Just few days after I listened to this song, my best friend of mine suddenly asked.

“I’m a bad boy, right? I left this girl, suddenly.” (he showed me a picture of a girl from his phone.)
“Left her? How?”
“I like her, but suddenly I lost interest. It’s our first time hang out together, I brought my motorbike and she suddenly hugged me from behind and put her chin on my shoulder. I never texted her again after that day. I’m a bad boy, rite?”
I laughed. It's remind me with this song, and I told him to listen to the song.
“Nope. It’s normal to act that way. It must be hurt for the girl, but you did the right thing. It’s okay. Just give her some more time. Time will heal the wound.”

There’s no girl like to be treated that way, it's HURTS, however. But it’s okay. We can’t force you to keep liking us, anyway.



(UPDATE)
I think many people looking for Baek Ah Yeon- You Shouldn't Have lyric/mp3 but end up here read my stories lol, heheh I'm sorry. In case you looking for english lyric, here it goesss! I think the best english translation is by JYP itself (from the MV).

You Shouldn't Have (백아연/Baek Ah Yeon - 이럴거면 그러지말지)
English Translation lyric.

I’m so anxious, I’m wide awake
Why did you have to do that?
I just gotta ask the lame question,
What was I to you?

Nanananananana ~
Was I the only one in a fuss?
Nanananananana ~
I’m honest and truthfull, but you ..

So that’s how it was
I was happy but maybe you weren’t
So that’s how you were back then
Not knowing the truth, I was alone

If we were gonna end like this
You shouldn’t have hugged me that night when taking me home
Your words that made my heart flutter and kept me up all night
You shouldn’t have said those either
You shouldn’t have

You hid from me like coward
I was a fool to believe you’d comeback
Your adoring eyes that gazed at me longingly
I was such a fool for falling for them
Never knew what was coming

Now that it’s all done
I will just say it openly
Your mind has already left me
And I cannot change it

So that’s how it was
I was happy but maybe you weren’t
So that’s how you were back then
All I can think of is you, I am alone

If we were gonna end like this
You shouldn’t have hugged me that night when taking me home
Your words that made my heart flutter and kept me up all night
You shouldn’t have said that, I never even imagined


(RAP PART, BOY'S ANSWER)
Watcha wanna do now
Maybe it’s a momentary feeling
An error might happened soon
I don’t know, but in my opinion it won’t last very long
Not because of you but because of me
This whole relationship won’t last


Oh! This sleepless and painful night
Can you just text me once saying hi?
Wondering what if, I post our stories on SNS
You shouldn’t have liked my posts
It makes me to expect more

Just like the night when you took me home
Come back and hug me warmly
With the words that made my heart flutter and kept me up all night
Let my heart pound once more, make me melt once more

You shouldn’t have said I’m cute You shouldn’t
You shouldn’t have

I’m just talking to myself more and more
These words I’ll never say to you

(PS: Baek Ah Yeon wrote the lyric herself, she's truly a great musician!)

(ANOTHER UPDATE)

Actually, even without promotion (appearance on Music Show), this song rating keep going up up and up! Few weeks after the song came out, she made a appearance on few music show with this song, since the song received sooo much love from the many people. And finally, it reached #1 on Music Bank! yeah. How gladd! :)

HANGUL

이진아 -  편지


여전히 남아있는 잔잔한 글씨들이
내 맘을 내 눈빛을 움직이네

살며시 꽃송이를 전해주던 그 순간들
잠시 눈 감아 생각해보네

아 그리운 그 사랑
아 그리운 그 사람

조용히 내 손을 잡아주던 그날들
잠시 눈 감아 생각해보네

아 그리운 그 사랑
아 그리운 그 사람

아 그리운 그 사랑

아 그리운 그 사람

여전히 남아있는 잔잔한 글씨들이

내 맘을 내 눈빛을



ROMANIZATION

yeojeonhi namainneun janjanhan geulssideuri
nae mameul nae nunbicheul umjigine

salmyeosi kkotsongireul jeonhaejudeon geu sungandeul
jamsi nun gama saenggakhaebone

a geuriun geu sarang
a geuriun geu saram

joyonghi nae soneul jabajudeon geunaldeul
jamsi nun gama saenggakhaebone

a geuriun geu sarang
a geuriun geu saram
a geuriun geu sarang
a geuriun geu saram

yeojeonhi namainneun janjanhan geulssideuri
nae mameul nae nunbicheur



ENGLISH TRANSLATE

The tiny letters that still remain
Moves my eyes
And moves my heart

The moment when he give me flowers gently
I close my eyes for a second
And I remind them.

I miss it, that love.
I miss him, that man.

The moment when you hold my hands silently
I close my eyes for a second
And I remind them.

I miss it, that love.
I miss him, that man.
I miss it, that love.
I miss him, that man.

The tiny letters that still remain
Moves my eyes
And moves my heart


SOURCE

Hangul by music daum

Romanization by lovemiko
English sub by Atalia (myself)


NB: Lee Jin Ah performance is like 10% singing and 90% talking. The message always delivered perfectly through its lyrics and melodies.
She made such a great songs but this song is the most touching for me! Most beautiful so farr! That's why I put this on my blog.

You need to hear it!

Search her on google/ youtube and you'll understand!